Today, I feel like we will make it and that's a great feeling. Emmi has really been adjusting very well despite the sleep issues but I have had a hard time transitioning to four and to having a toddler again. I know I haven't given myself enough time to really recover but I immediately felt the pressure to get back to a full home school schedule etc. It's pressure that I put on myself (lest you think it is others). :) Anyway, it's been a little bit of a nightmare and has made me feel very inadequate and very ill-equipped to continue educating the boys, managing our home, etc.
However, today, I finally feel like this is going to eventually work. We finally had a great night of sleep which in and of itself was rejuvenating and gave me a renewed outlook on life. And we were able to get in a really good day of school - I was able to teach all of the boys, Emmi was happy overall, and Titus and Emmi played together while I worked with the big boys. I am hoping this is the start of a normal routine. I would like to emerge from this fog and feel like we are not only going to survive but that we are going to THRIVE!
Our sweet girl has far surpassed our expectations. She is doing so well! Yes, she is into everything and not sleeping well but she is communicating and connecting and we are amazed. I fall more in love with her with each passing day. She is spunky, opinionated, hilarious, affectionate, stubborn, genuine, smart, and adorable - I am not biased at all. HA! I am thoroughly enjoying having a daughter - I painted her nails tonight. :) So that's our update. I'm exhausted tonight but feeling relieved that there is light at the end of the transition tunnel.