It's starting to sink in that we are likely heading for China in about 6 weeks! I'm excited and nervous and very overwhelmed. Our family has been sick for a week which hasn't helped. I feel like my to-do list is a mile long and our schedule is busy.

I'm not really sure if I have the right size of clothes or the right toys and activities (especially for a 24 hour trip home). I've held off purchasing very much for her. And now I'm realizing, it's time. I need to buy the diapers and the medicines and the travel items. I need to be actively preparing - washing her clothes, painting, cleaning, and freezing meals for when we are home (jet lag, new sister/daughter in a new home, new country, new everything, and boys who haven't seen their parents in 2 weeks is NOT going to be easy).

The truth is...I'm tired. This cough/cold has wiped me out and just the general busy-ness of homeschooling, holidays, and working.

I'm nervous. I know the adjustment may be challenging. I know that leaving the boys for two weeks is going to be super hard. I know that the days of being a family of five are ending - both a joyful and sad thing. We are headed back into diapers, sleepless nights (likely). and toddler things. We are welcoming a girl - we kinda know the boy thing but the girl thing is definitely new. :)

Amidst all of that, I am SO happy, excited, and eager to meet our precious daughter. We have no doubt that God chose her to be in our family. We really do love her already. We cannot wait to meet her and introduce her to her already-adoring-brothers and to our family and friends.

Reality is here and it feels like this has been awhile coming and very quick all at the same time.

Praying for the transition and for the remainder of the process.
Embracing these days as a family of five.
Celebrating the holidays.
Anticipating the needs of our daughter and family.
Looking forward to becoming a family of six.

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